Dont Know WHy!!!!???!!!

Ever since one of my friends decided she wanted to give up the V ive been frustrated and annoyed. I think about it and out of my friends im going to be last to give it besides my friend who wants to wait til shes married. Is it ok to be a virgin? Everyone says "oh its ok, guys actually like it" and they say "you have time blahblahblah" (that ke$ha song would come in handy here) but they dont understand weather theyve done it or just did it....they dont understand anymore no matter if they were or didnt do it till they were so an so age but they just dont get it anymore. And I cant take it when they think they kno! I love them all for trying to make me feel better and my mother prob just doesnt want it to happen which i understand why because im her daughter. But theres two sides to it.
Side one:
I would love to save it for someone that i care about (like been dating for a while) and people say that it feels better or something like that.
Side two:
I just want to get it over with cause no matter what It is never good the first time you do it well for the girls....its just uncomfortable.
well anyways....I just dont know and my friend who did it is one of my best friends and its one of those things we do a lot together and its just weird that for the million trillianth time she is ahead of me in everything...Ive never been on a date....havent even got past just making out and shes been on dates and has gone step by step with one guy after the other and when ever I talk about how im sad or upset at the fact Im not getting anywhere with guys all she tells me is pretty much its my fault "you have had your chances and u blew" pretty much wat she says. And I will admit they are my fault but I dont need to be reminded everytime im upset and I only regret one. I have like really bad anxiety but I need to get over it and I also can not stand my friends boyfriend. I tried to be nice.....and he just pushed me to a limit and it takes a lot to push me (he wanted me to go out with his friend and I didnt want to cause i didnt find him attractive but he just wouldnt drop it) he says he was just joking around but this is coming from a guy who cant take a fricken joke to save his life. And it started from feb 14 to just this saturday when he wanted to talked to me about it but my friend held the fone out and i just mouthed off/told him off. He thinks he can just talk to me like im 5 and fix everything....he is such a douche but my friend kinda likes him i think and that means ill have to deal with him for now....but nothing says i need to be nice so im just gonna say im sorry ahead of time for anything. ok im done blabbing i just need to say it somewhere and blogging just i guess is the best place to do it cause no one judges u specially when you dont have friends on here :/ oh wells.
Peace<3Rock

Is a little spastic

Im a little spastic at the moment. Somewhere stuck in the clouds and no one is there with me for some reason. I am sooooo frustrated over so many things and one thing is blogger.com. I was thinking why write a blog if I have no friends on here.....no ones reading my useless crap anyways. but oh well cause no matter what Im gonna do it because its easier to complain to the internet than to real people sometimes. I am no watching The Ugly Truth,....very funny and Im hungry and in need of something that I cant find.but oh well going to bed now....blab i mean blog nighty night*

Random night time rant!

Hello people who care at all to read this even though i have no friends on here and really dont know how to add or find ppl. Anyways
just thought I would write something because it is 1:46 am and I am still awake and so tired that Im kinda just going crazy. so Im just going to write random stuff thats on my mind
SO
STUFF THATS ON MY MIND!!!
Puppies(why Idk?)
GIR
Invader Zim
"Hi Baby!"
"Piggy I loveded you" :(
eww CLowns (yuck)
scary clowns..
coke ===--like the drink
blue
glitter
the club
dancing
ew grinding scares me
ninja cupcake monkey
sit back relax
Panic! at the disco
alesana
Anabelle===---crazy bitch
and george lopez
funny shizznits lol

Wellll thats all for now....ranting done...im being yelled at to go to bed
cause i cant wait to clean the house tomorrow
more rants later by yours truly and some not so rants
but thats what blogs are for riiiiight?!!?
kk
Peace....lates ;)

people over people

People. One word describes most of our population in this world, besides animals, plants, and unidentified life forms. It's funny how people can be so nice yet get on your nerves so badly. Nothing describes the hurt that we can inflict on people and it peeves me off that people can't understand each other sometimes. You would think with all the training we have being around each other, but unless your somewhat close, you don't see what other people are feeling or you just wont. It's like when someone wants something soo badly that they will ignore the rest of the world to get it even if you spell it out in plain ENGLISH for them. Its kind of rediculous and I really cant understand or dont anymore. Everytime I think about it all it does it get me sad and depressed and the sad thing is that I try and control it and I just can't and I know Ive grown more than that to control myself around this disappointment. Like when this guy I had gone to school with, he all of a sudden messaged my friend and told her how pretty she looks and this and that and then personally messaged her, then he tells me that he likes her and I told him straight out she wouldnt go out with him because I liked him and shes my best friend and so it was all my fault. And I had been on the phone with her at the time so she was saying to me ok that sounds good and I got a little upset about it. But when we were talking about it, she does look amazing now and i understand that, and i know she wouldnt do anything to hurt me like that but for some reason when she started talking about I had a feeling that if he asked her out she might go or she would think about it cause i just feel like I could hear it in her voice. But how can I blame any of it on them....she is still looking for someone and she does look amazing and I guess when people make changes you CAN see over changes you CAN'T see it has more of an impact and I guess I really can't compete with that. I guess that changes Ive made arent really noticed until someone decides they want to see it.

waz up

Hey Im new just joined Blogger and Its interesting...Im having a block at the moment but it will come i can babble on and write like crazii lol.btw
-nicole